Can’t stop thinking about all the terrible and embarrassing things I’ve done while drunk
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Hey Morgan, I know how that feels, beeelieevveee me. I still have flashbacks sometimes where I’m overcome with embarrassment, guilt, shame etc. What helps me is first, reminding myself that I was messed up when I did that stuff, and that I can’t change the past. Then I use some of my recovery tools like prayer, meditation, reading or reaching out to someone. Keep your head up and eyes forward, it gets easier.
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I agree with Rachel H and I can definitely relate. It does get easier or at least we get better at accepting it. Stay Strong!
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I did some horrible things as well. I hurt the people that loved and trusted me the most. Coming to terms with all of this was extremely painful. It took time and good behavior to slowly move away from those intense feelings of shame, guilt, and remorse. Little by little I began to feel like I’m not that person anymore. It’s been almost 16 months now, and I really have put that in my past. I’m not that person anymore. Sure, I’ll get triggered every now and then, but it’s not often, and it’s very manageable. Just keep moving forward. You don’t have to be that person ever again. I promise it gets better
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I still have those and tomorrow I’ll be 16 months sober
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We all did very shameful things while drinking or using drugs. It was the disease acting out. Try to leave the guilt behind,, and focus on the good things you are accomplishing in a sober life.
I feel the same. I try to remember there’s nothing i can do to change the last. All I can do is move forward and learn from those mistakes. I’ve been going to Recovery Dharma zoom meetings and last nights meeting had this meditation. Meditation for Forgiveness Jack Kornfield Meditation for Forgiveness - Google Search
It’s going to be ok! Just remember you can’t go back people have to take you for who you are NOW. If they don’t they are not meant to be in your circle.
If you take the 12 steps of AA at the guidance of a good sponsor all this stuff is dealt with and you can move forward.
It’s difficult not gonna lie, forgetting the things we did and said. One thing that helped me was being able to vent about what I’m feeling to a close friend, or family member I trust. I found their feedback to be quite helpful. You just have to remember, what’s past is past. It doesn’t affect what you do know, if you keep on the straight and narrow. Keep your head up love, you’ll be ok
Yesterday is gone bro. Tomorrow ain here yet.
Work Work Work. It gets way better.