So yeah, got waaaay used to my friend J being around a LOT n heart to heart talks, sharing, meeting up n Him coming over, all on the Spiritual side n great honesty, super deep connection like family. Deep n sweet. Yes, me still fighting my inner Biker Chick, just keepin it real. But in our Native Community, I’m a mentor so it would be not appropriate to cross that line, especially with tthe age difference. So I’m mostly over those earlier conflicted feelings. Yesterday, I had a dependence reaction. He was really busy n I got emotional. Felt very sharp loneliness, and emotional attachment. Red flagged myself. Was surprised how much it hurt. I recognized the roots of compulsion running so deep, that I missed his presence so much, it made me very sad. Worked hard on those feelings. Traced them back to the roots n saw where they were coming from. Unstuck them from my heart as best I could. Prayed a LOT! Don’t want to lose this friendship n know my Creator expects me to work on this
And get it right in my head.I’ve made huge Progress. This one is hard but I’m grateful I see it clearly n understand it is driven by loneliness. Forgive myself. Be honest n gentle with myself. Feels better sharing it. Thanks Sober Nation! I know I’m not alone! Great 24 lovely people. Aho! Sky 
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