CHANGE, is on my mind. I've been sober for 7 months now ,after a 7 month drinking binge and 4 and a half years Pryor to that . My thing is I've changed for myself and no one else, and it seems no one cares what I accomplished , and distance from like I'm some kind of virus... not good.
Yeah, I kind of found some people distance for me and it sucks but maybe it’s for my own best cause they drink every day and smoke weed and so forth… I have changed for myself my kids see the difference I can only do it for myself, because the promise of doing it for somebody else or can be a big let down and then you relapse… I was going to a localAA meeting and I had a question with one of the females in there and she spoke about it to other females so the next time I walked into that meeting, I felt like I had the plague and it sucks that awkward so I know exactly what you’re talking about and that’s in the meaning!!!
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Yeah it's tuff
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Most definitely where I live is a very small community, and everybody knows everybody’s business and it’s worse than the meetings or even in relapse prevention this week alone three people overdosed and it’s becoming a weekly thing… and yes, I opened up to a female and the next meeting I walked into. I just turned around and walked out. I can feel the vibe and we’re supposed to support one another. It just goes to show that no matter how clean and sober person claims to be and says they’re working on it. Spiritually they are not perfect and yet spread gossip!!!’ for one. I cannot drink due to health issues and it will kill me. And I was in a coma for a month to a week from these words from my doctor and I could possibly have throat cancer due to drinking, so yeah it makes it a little hard if you’re out and People see you and you don’t have a bottle of beer or a drink in your hand people avoid you like the plague.!!! and then the next breath oh, how are you and then they talk behind your back…
Hang in there Hun!! do it for you and only you you don’t have to explain your details to anybody, and if anybody else you just chose a healthy lifestyle and not waking up with hangovers…
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