Chapter 12
Letting go and tragedy. It is easy to stay sober and clear when you are feeling good and life is going om what you view for your personal self image right on track the career , the relationships, the friendships and all the nice collectables in your home.. to quote an artist from the 1990's "Everything right where it belongs."
Numerous times I asked myself especially in this go in soberity since I left my home sooo long ago. What can I lose and still be okay. What kind of tragedy can Live through and still be okay? What do I truly need to feel loved and let myself be loved in return ? What material comforts are necessarily and just there to make other people feel comfortable or to impress others to show I made it to some level of an imaginary game nobody wins. I have seen happy people with nothing and people who made good money and had nice collectables but were miserable over some material controlling them in their skull. Who are you trying to prove yourself worth to?
One can talk about time about meetings or quote scripture of a broke business man and a proctologist. Yet what does it mean if the business model set forth doesn't truly heal you?
I have been a guide form 3,666,253,987,213 years now and I have watched people from kings to promoters to presents to being dying among riches and among nothing, with family and friends and alone in the woods. I have guided people to after point of breath. Yet they all smell alike when their body lets go of remaining waste and all that class and other aspects of self don't mean a thing. Get to know the real you and not an image of collectable comforts or an image you want to show on a screen to make others like you or give the illusion that you're really are at home and comfortable in your own skin. Embrace the tragedy and see what you're willing to take away but willing to learn about yourself along the way so you truly never have to drink or use again. I know I sure have