Chapter 2 Just freaking kill me. I mean it old yeller

Wellness
#1

Chapter 2

Just freaking kill me. I mean it old yeller me and get it over with. I am just renting this body anyway.. people feel that death is a thing to be mourned or feared or offensive.. we pity the people who mourn, because we want to own things.. own people, not in the mason dixie line sense but objectify them none the less.. take their time, their thoughts, feelings, middle of the legs parts for pleasure.. yet with no real connection to the emotional depth of the soul soup..we are always wanting and cravings and grasping and holding on to what we feel we think we need this or that but once you really let go.. you realize that you don't have to front no more especially to that body in the mirror as you ask them to make a change.. even though you may want more chance and your old life back in your heart and isn't easy abc 123.. I can assure you of that.. it is easy to present the beauty parts after feeling like a monster for so long. Yet seeing death and looking it in the eyes and you realize we are all a Thanos snap in the wind. What do you see in your personality that you truly enjoy and not body itself? What don't want to cover up but let yourself say world this is me and all my scars.. I ready to be vulnerable with it all. The body that is dead in this story is not an actual dead body. Yet is just an image of what a body is for your viewing pleasure.

Snap.

Oh fuuuuck. Look magic now it is dust in the bowl.

#2

Sounds like you got a case of cosmic nihilism. I've been there. What is the point in all this being our lives are so insignificant in the Universe. I got out of the nihilism by almost dying, so it's a difficult escape lol. After touching cold, dark , nothingness, I got a new found reverence for life , warmth, light, and organization. Life is this infantismally small probability of organization amid boundless chaos in the universe. Disentropy if you will. We humans are the pinnacle of that organization/life on this planet imo (as far as consciousness goes). We are all actually very unique and special in our base existence. Anything you do on top of that is essentially a bonus. Hopefully you see some positives in that explanation of my limited point of view. Good luck my friend.

#3

Thank you for your kind words my good fellow. :slightly_smiling_face: I do chapter stories on here. My philosophy to life is absurdism. You would like the YouTube channel exurb1a. Be well good sir