Checking myself into Oxford treatment center in Mississippi tomorrow. My

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Checking myself into Oxford treatment center in Mississippi tomorrow. My flight leaves dallas at 515 headed to treatment I hope to GOD for the last time. How many times will I go back to treatment. I’m not even telling anyone that I am going this time. I already have the thoughts in my head that I know they would all be thinking if I told anyone. “Again, what’s the point of going if I am only going to leave again within the first week.” Well the only thing I can tell myself when those doubts get into my head is that it doesn’t matter how many times i go. That just means that I am trying to get sober. I really REALLY REALLY WANT A BETTER LIFE. I want to be apart of the world around me and all the people in it. God please please I pray to you can I have the courage to face my own demons head on and overcome all the self doubt and self sabotaging that I have done In the past. God I pray for the strength to board that plane and start a new life and never look back

Amen

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:pray:t3:

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Sending prayers! I hope you find peace and can become sober. Praying for you

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Sending prayers your way!! I've learned that setting goals, not telling anyone is best. Keeps bad energy away from you and takes the pressure from feeling like your having to please others. You want this because you are choosing to go, just take things one day at a time and when you feel tempted to back track remind yourself why you've chosen to make a change for your life! May God bless you with strength, patience for yourself and continued motivation for a better life. You got this​:muscle:t4::muscle:t4:

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#6

I know exactly what you're feeling. It's called sick and tired of being sick and tired .
I have been through many treatment centers myself through the years.
Try to remember when you went back out the last time.
What was it like? Did things get any better? Sooner or later you're going to want to pick up again. When you get to that point, you need to play the scene all the way through. Oh it may feel good for a while. But sooner or later, you'll be right back where you are at that moment having to start all over again. I call it believing the Big Lie; That this time, things will be okay. But they never are they?

By the way, what did you do last time when you got out of treatment in order to stay sober? Did you go to AA meetings every day for at least 90 days? Did you get any phone numbers from the people at those meetings and use them everyday?

I'm an advocate of getting a sponsor who will take you through the 12 steps in the big book. That's how I got sober almost 8 years ago.

Start putting a plan in place right now today. Going to treatment is a good step but have a plan of action for when you start to feel good again because that's usually when we pick up again. How forgetful we are of the last time we went out and the pain we were suffering.

This comes from the doctor's opinion found in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. I had read and heard this many many times but the last time around I really wanted to get sober and stay sober. When I read these paragraphs, it hit me like an atom bomb.

Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one.

They are RESTLESS, IRRITABLE and DISCONTENTED unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an entire PSYCHIC CHANGE there is very little hope of his recovery.”

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Sending prayers your way Kimberly! I admire your fight to get help! I think that’s one of the toughest parts. I can’t wait to see how great you feel very soon!

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#8

By now you should be in flight. I hope you made it. Handle this rehab like a business trip. The mission is sticking it out to the end and soaking it in like a sponge. I wanted to leave, but around day 15 I had my moment. That psychic moment of surrender came to me. Don’t leave before the miracle happens. Rehab was my reset. Like Ellis said, most important is what you do after the reset. You can’t go back to doing things the way you did before. Change. Evolve. You can.

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#9

Rooting for you and sending prayers your way, Kimberly. I have heard good things about Oxford. You can do this, Kimberly.

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#10

Could you possibly sponsor me while I’m here in treatment

#11

Well I have been here 5 days sober now and starting to feel a little better every day

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#12

I did make it to treatment still here fighting my using dreams and cravings but I am 5 days sober now

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#13

Thanks for asking but I highly recommend a female sponsor.
It is recommended that men have male sponsors and women have female sponsors.
Until you find one, I will help you in any way I can.

#14

Do they have any copies of the Big Book at this treatment center? I would highly recommend reading it.

Ask me anything you like

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Yes I have a copy I brought with me

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I live in an Oxford in Corpus Christi Texas. It's definitely not a "treatment center", but definitely going to be a treat for your recovery. I added you.. message if you'd like.. and ony profile is my Text number

#17

Congratulations on your decision! You can do this? Good luck!

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Congratulations :tada:. Put everything you learn there into action when you go home. Everything. Get a sponsor, go to meetings, go to sober events, picnics, outings, dinner with people in your home group. Call people everyday and be accountable! It works. Take one day at a time. You are already doing that! Know you are a miracle in progress!

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#19

Go as many times as it takes, you are worth it, and we DO recover. Prayers to you!

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#20

Just "graduated" an in-patient myself- good luck!

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#21

I would start reading from page 0 thru 164. Within those 164 pages it is outlined how people just like yourself have recovered from a seemingly hopeless condition. Bringing that book with you says you have a desire to make this work. I can tell you that sobriety is a great way of life. Expect it to be a little rocky for a while. It's that way for everyone. Change is never easy.

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