Yesterday has been one of the happiest days of my life. I'm so happy to be here, to be present and to be sober!
It's nothing short of a miracle. Given the last couple days, and the pain involved it was an extremely tough day and although I'm celebrating so many victories I can't help but to look back and think how different things could have been had I been able to avoid some of the mistakes of the past.
Had I done a better job choosing which advice to follow and what to ignore. On the other hand, had I kept shooting heroin I would almost certainly be dead. My children would have no idea that they could attend school for free, given my service and disability. My daughter would almost certainly not be attending the University of North Texas this coming semester, and making it to college much less through college would have been a miracle in itself.
All this to say, it was a painful day and in the past I could have done things to make it less painful.
Some of the mistakes we make we will pay for for the rest of our life. You don't get the choice to choose which instances these are.
One day at a time we chose. One day at a time we choose death, or life, joy or pain. Life will no doubt deliver a mix but what we do with that mix will make or break the npw and the future. The past... pffft, that ship has sailed my friends.
