Day 2 and I just really want to vent about how much I hate the symptoms/side effects/withdrawals or whatever you wanna call them. I have no partner anymore to do so to like I'm used to and I don't want to be dependent on one anymore and get through this for real this time for me. I really hate how coffee gets me so restless day 1-3 of sobering up but if I don't have any I have 0 chance of being conscious at all lol. Anyways I am so exhausted but can't sleep because I'm too restless, my jaw and head hurt from all the clenching I get from withdrawing , and I feel like I can't effing breathe because of anxiety. So yeah btch and moan, btch and moan lol. I just want to relate to someone and not feel alone right now 
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I was going through the same stuff 8 months ago
Have you made plans for treatment yet?
I'm thinking a detox facility in your area as well
Is that doable for you?
Nah I don't feel like detox centers are really needed just need sleep, food and hydration lol. I'll be fine I just am trying to sleep and I'm having trouble.
I got this I just backslid for a few days I keep maintaining sobriety for 30-60 days and then relapse a day or two. I have no one to enable me this time I cut everyone off and recently discarded all my "reservations" as they call them. My plans are to just attend IN PERSON NA meetings again and find a sponsor for the first time.
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