Day 106 (3 months, 14 days):
On last night’s Zoom call the discussion topic was the notion of “coming out” regarding our respective sobriety journeys. Ironically, I had just last week shared on my IG that I was nearing 100-days of being alcohol-free so the discussion topic was one I had been reflecting on recently.
I can’t put my finger on what prompted me to share the post as I don’t even post much and certainly don’t share such vulnerable and intimate details about my life. That said, as I don’t believe in coincidence, I imagine I was being prompted to do so as part of my healing. Maybe even to be incentivized with continued commitment through creating accountability.
While I may never know the answer, what is known is that I am acutely aware of the harm that can occur from deeply internalized shame and guilt. In that regard, my sharing of the post served as a release of sorts for that to occur. It also provided an opportunity for me to dialogue with others who may benefit from my sharing. My sense is that part of my healing involves serving others in their journeys. Therefore, I’m a sobriety ambassador????
The picture above is from a conference I was at in San Diego last week. I did have a resistance to sharing the post as I am connected to quite a few folks from that community via IG.
In theory, I could care less what others think of me. In reality, I am sometimes, at minimum, cognizant of a concern of how others will perceive me if they regard me as a person with a drinking problem.
My conclusion to the discussion point was it depends on a person’s subjective rationales for doing so. For me, I don’t feel a need to volunteer details of my current path of sobriety but am also not inclined to shout it from these NYC rooftops either. Still navigating through these notions . . . At least I’m doing so with a sober mind.
Sending support and encouragement to all in their respective journeys! Sober weekend and beyond yo!
