I want to share with you that a lot of factors have always tripped me up and the worst downfall of all is for me personally to become complacent with my sobriety. Boastfulness, stubborn self pride and ignorance not understanding the basics of people's intentions, illusions and the shallowlessness intertwined. Complacency knowing that I do not have this but pretending I do anyway. Party after party all of my effing life. I don't want to be Six Feet Under, my last breath wreaking of liquor and stale cigarettes. When all I ever wanted in this life is to be loved. A human basic need restricted and ungiving until I find myself preferring my own company greatly so. So God bless us all keep striving not for perfection or validation but for being free in our life, in our lives!
Keep pushing forward and don't give up.... Just reach out if you ever need to chat....this shyt sucks I know but also understand the I AM still has plans!!!!
"When All I ever wanted in this life is to be loved" wow that struck my soul.
I completely see myself in this statement. Just know by posting this eloquently written passage has helped at least one person today...me. I dont know you but I love you.
Beautifully written Lauren. Your honest expressions are invaluable! Keep being you 
Thank you Al, I was hoping that you would read my post and others would read it. Keep up the good work Al. Love you Lauren
Well said Allen, I like the phrase I am, very good. I will reach out Loose It Out has really been beneficial to me. Lauren
I apologize to all I have not been on the phone at all I'm sorry thank you for your positive feedback! I forgot what you sober up you actually start feeling body aches LOL. God bless Lauren
Lauren, this is powerful. Complacency is such a quiet, sneaky thing. It doesn’t announce itself… it just slowly convinces us we’re “fine” while we drift.
I relate to what you said about wanting to be loved at the core of it all. So much of my chaos came from trying to fill that basic human need in all the wrong places.
The fact that you can see it and speak it tells me you’re not complacent… you’re aware. And awareness is protection.
Keep striving for freedom, not perfection. I’m grateful you shared this. 
Being sober won't keep me sober.I need to work at it everyday.Doing nothing puts me closer to a slip
You're so loquacious! I enjoyed reading this.
Thank you for sharing Complacency can creep in, and recognizing it the way you did catch it faster. Reflection is how people stay sober.
Complacency sneaks up on a lot of us. It’s not always the chaos that gets us it’s that quiet voice saying “you’re fine now.” I felt the part about just wanting to be loved. That hits deep.
I’m glad you’re choosing freedom instead. That’s worth fighting for.
Thank you Rogers. You're right it's a multitude of things which makes it a lot more vague and unpredictable. God bless you and your family honey and keep up the great work! L
I love that mine or Reflections helps keep you sober! God bless you l
Thank you Jay God bless you
Absolutely Ronald,