i feel like no matter what shi ts tough like in active addiction obviously hurting and in pain all the time feining for the high spending copious amounts of money always chasing or in sobriety still feeling miserable inside and trying to chase that good happy feeling. trying to get back into your hobbies and it’s good until it isn’t. constantly having cravings and fighting the feeling not to use. it’s the same dam n thing either slowly killing yourself wit drugs or waiting for life to slowly kill ya…
idk just been having bad craving lately and i know using isn’t much better
**sigh, ugh
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I know you do a lot of yoga, but maybe try really diving into the 12 steps. It wasn’t until I did my steps that I was relieved of the obsession to drink and use.
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I understand how there might be times we might not be feeling at our best and for those times it is better to express ourselves on how we feel, either to close ones, or a professional that knows how to assess our problems in an individualized way. By doing that, we can take our thoughts out of our minds and avoid bottling our feelings. You're already on the right path as you sought help instead of letting it all inside. I hope you feel better soon and congratulations on 354 days sober!
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thank you for ur support!! i just got done with group and i think that change has gotten me down. im definitely gonna start AA again
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i’ve done the steps in the past but when i go to AA it makes me think about drugs even more if that makes sense
I hear ya Two 
DM me yoga has helped me as well
Hey Two, sorry to hear your struggles, have been there and i get the frustration of life in general sometimes. If you can decide and know that drugs and drinking really don't do anything that you want, and realize that the chase was based on the illusion that they would then the cravings become just minor annoyances related to physical healing, and the desire goes away.
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It definitely gets easier with time.
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In my experience, just not thinking about drugs and alcohol will never keep us sober for long. The Big Book promises us that if we work the steps we will be placed in a position of neutrality. We won’t be thinking about drinking and using and we won’t be thinking about not drinking and using. We will exist peacefully in a world where these things exist.
This has been true for me. I hope you find the peace you’re looking for. Consider giving the rooms another try.
Maybe try AA specifically if drug stories trigger you. I’m definitely an addict but I identify as an alcoholic because the Big Book describes my disease. I got sober in AA.
This isn’t an easy thing to do but it’s the best thing you can do for yourself. Can you seek professional and get something for your cravings? Mine was alcohol so I was given a craving medication and withdrawal medication which honestly saved my life. Try checking into the if you can. You can do it. Keep reaching out. Take it even one minute at a time and before you know it time passes.
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thanks for sharing !!! im already on medication for cravings. some days are just harder than others ya know
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Fight fight fight 
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I don't know if you've realized this, but just in your time on this app I have noticed good changes in you, your posts, etc. Sobriety is working for you. Hang in there. People need to hear your experience and strength. "Hope" is a terrible strategy, seeing people making it is proof that it can be done and it gets better.
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awww thank you i needed to hear that !! thank you for sharing (＾＾)人(＾＾ )ノ
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