I’m at a graduation party for my nephew and not only was I charged with taking care of the baby all day I’m the only adult not drinking. Everyone has asked me for two days if I’d like a drink, and it’s worth noting that it’s my in-laws so it’s not like they know the ins and outs of my “journey”. With that said I’ve been holding back tears all day because all I want to do is drink, have a few, and be as laid back and relaxed as everyone else. Because I’m not the point in my sobriety where I can look around and say wow I’m happy that’s not me, I’m not comfortable enough to be around this yet. If I’m not sober forever I made a commitment to be sober for now and this just really sucks.
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Kudos for acknowledging you're not ready for those situations!..We need to avoid them like the plague til we accept that we can't drink like normal people again. Hang in there Victoria, it definitely gets easier and better
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You know what I would think about if I were in your shoes? All the times I missed out on meaningful events like the one you’re at now because of my drinking. And that goes for how many times I was there but not really present because I was working on getting wasted. You’re so lucky that you can show up for your Nephew and really experience this event sober! And all those people around you drinking might not have a problem like we do. Because I wasn’t just going to enjoy one and “relax”. One, led to two, and two to three and then I was waking up hungover after probably embarrassing myself and nephew. I think it helps to remember those things when you’re at events like this AND eventually the events get easier and you wake up one day knowing you’ll never go back and how you can’t imagine not being sober! And, give yourself permission to leave. When you’ve reached the point where you’re no longer enjoying yourself, it’s okay to give your nephew a big hug, tell him how proud you are of him and then head out to hit a meeting or take some time for you!
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Stay strong!! You got this!
I wanted to drink to be happy and now I stay sober so I will stay happy.
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Hey Victoria alcohol doesn't really make you laid back, it is the placebo effect. What it really does is wack our chemicals and force our bodies to purge it out. Realizing that alcohol doesn't enhance the celebration but we've been trained to think it does has helped me a ton.
I give u a lot of credit for going and staying when your felt uncomfortable I would have 
stay strong 
Just take it one day at a time and commend you on recognizing the situation at hand congratulations keep pushing
That’s your sanity being returned. The ability to recognize that if we drink, we can’t just have a few. One leads to two to three to a spree.
From my experience what has helped me is not putting myself in those situations. Not putting myself in risky situations or slippy slopes.
If you’re you’re left no choice to go, say a wedding or funeral, go tor a limited amount of time.
And have ways to cope. Call someone, especially someone in recovery. Call your sponsor if you have one. Remember and concentrate on YOUR health.
Because if we don’t have our recovery, we won’t have anything else.
You can do this. I believe in you. 
I understand your feelings do well. I agree it is best to not put yourself in these drinking situations until you are stronger and more into your recovery. Believe you can do it! I have come to that conclusion that I can be in these situations now. I have 2+ years sobriety.
That's tough. You're doing great though. Just look at the progress you've made. Instead of drinking you are embracing your feelings and venting on the app. Keep your head up and keep after your goals.