So I downloaded an app in order to connect to people just like I did with this app we’re on now. Setting it up, it asked me for my sobriety date. I don’t want to use the other app anymore and I’m gonna tell you why.
As long as my program is for today, I am succeeding in a program that took me over a decade and a half to put together properly. As soon as I start future tripping or thinking too much about the past then I am no longer in the present and I start getting anxiety about my program. As soon as somebody - or something like that other app that is pictured here - wants me to try to count back to figure out where my sobriety date is, I know, go backwards into a world of suffer in my mind that does not work for my program.
What’s it their business anyhow?
There are other people that have more time than me in meetings that people can look at to see that it’s possible.
If I am never going to put the bottle to my lips again, one of the requirements of me succeeding in my sobriety is to not stress about my program .
If stressing about your program works for you go for it. To each their own. For me, being present in the moment with today’s program is what keeps me from sliding back into that dark place, and trying to count how many days of success I have undermines my ability to do this without putting stress on my program that is not necessary.
Some people really need milestones and so these numbers might be important to them but I don’t want to know my sobriety date anymore (of course I will never forget it) and I don’t want to think about it anymore because that’s where I used to be when I was struggling and not succeeding.
So I’m not going to be using that other app because I don’t count my days because it Hurts my program to count days.
Thank you for reading all of this and thank you for understanding that it is completely OK to not count your days because you can have a successful program with or without, depending on what works best for you
