I don't think I crave alcohol or party drugs anymore, but what I think I crave and or miss the most is the well being the center of attention or the party guy, or everybody invites this guy type guy. It's almost coming up in two years, and now I'm starting to feel the loneliest I have in my entire life because now I want to think, do stuff, and go out in about, maybe, but at the same time, I don't. I don't know why it's so confusing.
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Maybe needing to be "the center of attention" holds some answers or a cause for reflection.
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For sure, and we work through it at therapy, but we all know most of it is in our head, and I need to keep pushing... maybe
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I just had this conversation with someone this past weekend. I was restless and itching to go do something, but I couldn't figure out what to do at 8:00 on a Saturday night. I said to the friend that I used to just go to the bar, and I realized that many of my previous relapses were initially brought on not by a craving for alcohol, but by a craving for the kind of social interaction you get with a stranger at a party when everyone's inhibitions have been lowered.
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You’re not alone Steve. I struggled and still struggle here and there with that. For me it started getting better when I participated more in AA and started hanging out with the fellowship outside of those rooms. Hang in there 
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I feel that way everyday
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