Craving… and I’m super sleepy. 
Pray...and there's a difference between a physical craving (where I drink alcohol and my body craves and demands MORE) and an obsession of my mind (where I obsessively think about alcohol whenever I am not drinking). I had to learn that from AA, and realized that this is an incredibly powerful disease. I had to pray for God to remove the obsession to drink, and then one day it was gone. It took a lot of work - a ton of meetings, a solid sponsor, going through and then actively working all 12 steps, and doing the next right thing no matter what but I put more work into my drinking and recovering from hangovers than that! It sounds daunting, and I had completely demolished my life. My thoughts raced, and I never thought that I'd be able to get out of that deep, dark hole that I was in! This is a 24 hour (not even considering I sleep 6-8 hours a day) program, where all I have to do is not pickup between the time I wake up and the time I go to bed.
I HIGHLY recommend going to 90 meetings in 90 days, finding a sponsor who has taken women through the book and the steps, getting a home group, and getting a service position in that home group (to hold you accountable to that group). It works, but only if you work it! I'm praying for you, Astrid. 
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