Crossroads

Recovery
#1

I was at a crossraods that id never been at prior to going into treatment on 2/25/25. I couldnt stop using.
I used drugs bc I couldnt handle the trauma & PTSD from losing my daughter, son & husband. I used drugs/alcohol since i was 7 yrs old to change the way I feel inside. I have never been this ready to CHANGE OR DIE due to this disease I have. My 2 living daughters I felt wouldnt miss me all my kids being adults with their own families now - I feel so alone at times. My girls dont get it. They dont get addiction. THANK GOD FOR THAT THO!! It skipped them! My granddaughters they will stand the test im sure especially my mini me that is ALL HER GRAMMY looks, attitude and sassafrass she is gonna take her parents for the ride of their lives someday!
This last time in treatment it being #8 since i was 18 i wanted to die they ended up calling me thennext morning after i admitted that outloud to my friend! God is ALWAYS WORKING IN MY LIFE doing for me what I couldnt do for myself!
I was gonna take a bottle of pills to go quietly asleep so i could be with my family again. Being married 28 yrs is 3 decades of so many moments that are now only memories those i couldnt deal with either.
Today I have 43 days clean n sober this time i want QUALITY RECOVERY, not quantity. Yes the days IN A ROW MATTER IT SHOWS THE NEWCOMER THIS PROGRAM OF NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS WORKS - WE HAVE TO WORK IT TO STAY HERE!
From experience MISERY IS STILL ON THE STREET SO IS ALL THE SCANDALOUS PEOPLE! Refunding our misery is REAL!

Im grateful to be here and clean n sober JUST FOR TODAY!

Thanks for letting me share :v:t4::100::100:

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#2

:bulb: Building a Life of Gratitude –

Shifting from Complaints to Praise

Gratitude is the bridge that transforms what we have into enough and what we dream into possibility.

Our words shape our perspective. Instead of focusing on what’s wrong, shift your focus to what’s right and praise God for His faithfulness.

:speech_balloon: Transformative Question: How can I turn a complaint into gratitude today?

:pray: Prayer Prompt: Lord, change my heart so that my words reflect praise instead of complaints. Help me to see the good in every situation. Amen.

Today is Thankful Thursday. Embrace every precious moment as it comes. May you feel joy, peace, and a heart filled with Love. :heart::pray:

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#3

You’re carrying decades of grief and still found a way to fight for your life. That’s not just recovery, that’s redemption. You didn’t just survive that darkness, you’re turning it into light for the next soul coming through it.

Your grandbabies have a warrior as their Grammy. They’re gonna know the power of transformation through you. Super super proud of you.

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#4

:pray::clap:t3::clap:t3: powerful share Jodi. I love you what you said the quality over quantity! :100:

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#5

Thank you! :blush:

#6

Thank you for sharing this with me! I really needed that right now!! :relaxed:

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#7

I LOVE this @crissy267894 “redemption” I’ve been trying to find the word that describes that for awhile now!! Thank YOU!! :blush: