Currently working on the ugly part of my 4th step…such an eye opener! All of the time I thought I was such a victim, only to see that I indeed am toxic. It was so much easier to take others inventory and deflect from my own part. I am literally laying low, and walking through this with my eyes wide open, with God by my side…holding on until I make it to my assets!
So much healing on the other side 


Just be as honest as you can
It is really about the honesty piece. The reality that we are the problem is sooo big to be able to accept and move on to real healing. Defiance and denial have no place in really progressive recovery.
Good deal
Agree completely…the reality is, I am my own worst enemy, and not a good person in active addiction.
Forgive yourself first. Then the healing process will begin. Living amends was crucial for me. Doing the next right thing was a big help to leave the shame behind. We have a disease that wants to kill us. It tells us we’re the victim so we keep the destructive behavior. Once you get the power back you can tell Satan and your disease to go suck it. lol. Good luck.
Thank you!!