Every morning I wake up telling myself im not going to consume any alcohol today. Every evening i end up doing it. Ugh
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100% functioning alcoholic. Never miss work, not abusive to anyone, or anything. (Other than my own body) just cant quit. ugh
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This is totally me. It's hard because we don't get into trouble and we keep the bills paid but our health is just as important as getting into trouble. We may not go to jail or miss work but we're slowly killing ourselves and it will impact others around us.
That’s a tough one. I almost always got what needed to get done done. But over time it just wasn’t sustainable. Also, I could never control the amount I drank. I would say I’m only going to have one or two and that never happened. Only I could say if it was a problem or not.
A friend asked me once, if it wasn’t a problem would I spend this much time thinking about it?
He also said, I like Dr Pepper, but I never drank a case of it in a day. 
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You're right. I was the same for a long time but it wasn't sustainable. Do something now while you can.
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Dan, I have been exactly where you are. I was an extremely high functioning alcoholic! Made big money, had it all and thought I was doing great. But ol father booze kept taking my soul bit by bit, until I was a shell of a man. Nothing or nobody meant anything to me.
Getting clean and thoroughly doing my program freed me from the labyrinth of addiction. Best move I ever made!
I’m here if you ever want to talk.
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Yup. And I was literally killing myself a little (or a lot) each day. I finally accepted that I am powerless over alcohol and my life became unmanageable. Next stop…..rehab. I’ll have 1 year sober in 3 days.
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I was able to be a functional drinker for years until I wasn't. Meetings help a lot of people. I chose to take a more drastic step by going to a 30 day inpatient stay. I'm a control freak so giving up control and being in a supervised environment to really work on my issues was what I needed. It wasn't the most fun thing I've ever done, but getting control of my life and what alcohol was doing to me was worth it. Now looking back on it I would highly recommend looking into if you have the desire to stop drinking and start living again.
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Same for me. I won awards, got raises and dinner was on the table every night and the kids were bathed or showered. Then I would drink till I passed out, wake up and do it all over again. Crazy! Sober 18 years now. Best decision I ever made.
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How did you start? I dont know how, and not sure that i can do it
I don't know how to break the cycle. Nobody is even aware that I have this problem. No way I'm going to broadcast it to family. But, tomorrow morning, ill vow the same thing. Ugh
I walked in your shoes for decades. I came upon this life saving ap about 2 years ago. I received so much inspection from everyone and finally said “I can’t do this anymore “. I had to want to want it. I am so happy to wake up every morning and look in the mirror and say “I’m sober!” Wishing you happiness. Just for today.
It’s probably best if we talk.
I friend requested you. Please accept and then I’ll text you my cell number
Find and attend a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous.
Just walk in and check it out. See if you identify with anyone there.
I was very much the same for many years.. until I wasn't.
You recognize the problem, there is help.. find an AA meeting near by or even stop in to a zoom meeting.
Though I find in-person meetings much better.
The disease doesn't go away, it only progresses.