Dark times/ New beginnings

Having to accept that alcohol aint for me anymore. Relapsed yesterday with the idea of chilling but ruined almost pretty much everything in my life yet again. Don't know where to start but I know I dont ever wanna drink again. Theres an online international AA community i joined yesterday, thats all I have for now at least. Any suggestions and advice for folks that have been here would be appreciated man, thanks ! :pray:t6: