Tonight has been a hard night.. I relapsed. And I’m irritated. I know I am not taking my sobriety serious. And this sucks. Because my husband is irritated at me for drinking again. I feel kinda bad but also i feel that he shouldn’t drink with me if he wants to “stay sober”.
It’s a team we have going on but also why does he make me feel bad about it when I want too but he ends up falling off the wagon too then blames me?! I don’t think it’s fare, both ways. I am pretty irritated about it.
You can always start again . Don’t give up . I know the shame in relapse . I actually made bracelets and had to take them all off . And I never got my month one at the time . You do feel it but it gives you incentive to try harder next time .
Sounds like you guys are just mad at each other and he’s looking for an excuse to drink and uses you and you are mad at him and probably makes you feel like drinking and it sounds like a mess. Try going to therapy and also try just worrying about yourselves. I don’t think I could ever quit drinking if someone in my home drank.
You sure have to do it for YOU...easier said than done when yr married to another drinker! Focus on YOU
You are able to regroup, reassess, and set new guidelines and boundaries. Most importantly, as Sonia and others have said- You do you for You First!!
Thank you.
Keep going! Even writing on here is a big step. You’re two different people, each responsible for your own selves.