In just a few hours or so I’ll be at that mark again..24hours. While I have had many 24s before I grow more and more confident in my ability to grow and over come and I really believe that I can do it. I know I have to recognize that not only do I have a drinking problem but a THINKING problem, and I can’t expect my mind to change over night after 6 or so years of substance abuse. I need to remember that there is absolutely no easier softer way, and any inclination that there is is to be deemed a straight up lie. I know this is going to be probably the most mentally and spiritually challenging thing I’ve ever done in life but I truly believe that I can be successful because I like to think I know who I really am or at least a big part of my heart and my spirit. I just know I can do it but it’s about the how’s and why’s that need address. I know I can’t do it on my own. I know I cannot do it for anybody or anything in the world no matter how bad I want or how hard I love, that I need to do it for me and for me first. Also that sobriety needs to be the priority. I need to utilize tools and insert myself in communities that promote wellness and success in this journey. There is a lot I want to accomplish, a lot of goals I want to reach, but just for today I am sober. It’s humbling to say that, even knowing I’ve said it many times before I don’t doubt my ability to be sober and stay sober. Thank you all for being apart of such a wonderful community, together we are truly stronger than we could ever really even imagine.
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Hey Malcolm! Sounds like you’ve got a lot of knowledge and experience regarding recovery. It’s time to put it all together one day at a time. If you can woke up tomorrow and read this back to yourself, I bet you will be willing and able to do the things necessary to stay sober. Try reading it again upon wakening the following day. Remember, we do this one day at a time
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I agree Malcom with the above comment.. Knowledge is power.. one 24 hour at a time.
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