I have failed so many times
I lost my job this time
I just am fighting through each day
Could use some kind words and support
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You are struggling but you are here trying and that is a very important thing. Failing is also part of the process. You have the tools to make it through. 
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I lost my job back in 2020 due to my addiction and I felt lost … I ended up getting the help I needed and ended up getting a better job than I had before …. Addiction is a battle that we fight everyday … I’ve failed many times where I relapsed but got back at working on my sobriety… just don’t give up .. u can do this!
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Stay strong. One day at a time is all we can do. Have a blessed day
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You’re Here !!!! Welcome back !!!! Keep up the Great work !!!!
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We only fail when we give up! Darn learning experiences!!! 
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I certainly do not like reading about relapses-who does?
( I have experienced so many this self, that please know I am being sincere when I relay that -
I GET IT ).
While you are definitely not alone in, in relation to this experience, Ashley.
It absolutely sucks while as has been mentioned-you are here and you shared.
Love to you and every single human struggling…and to yes, those who keep trying, ask for help and support.
It I S a big deal that you are here.
Keep going. You are amazing, you are not giving up. You can remain sober and you are certainly worth it, Ashley!
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You haven’t failed if you are still here. You learn something everytime. The greatest gift I have ever received is the day I truly realized I never had to drink about. Today is day 998 for me. If you knew me before that’s a fuckin miracle.
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It’s a blessing to get back to 11 again, there are lots that never make it back, we learn from each experience. You are back with us, and that’s all that matters 
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You are not alone. I got fired twice. You are almost to two weeks now. That is great. I just said that I was laid off with all future interviews. It will work out fine.
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Ashly do you mind if I ask if your in a program? What has your plan been?
Keep trying and just reaching out is trying. So keep the faith:)
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Day 41 here I pray a lot for courage and for God to take the wheel.
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I had the same thing essentially happen to me and by the grace of God was able to find a wayyyyy better opportunity with an incredible owner that hired me in part because of my past. It gets better as soon as I made myself read and re read page 417 on acceptance.. game changer for me. You got this!!
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Failed is such a finite word. You’re still here and now you’re a little wiser. You’ve learned and not failed!!! It’s a process. One that may not always go the way we think it should but keep your head up and I promise you will get there!! I promise it will get better!!!! You can do this!!!!
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The good news here is that you never have to drink again.
I don't know what kind of program you were running all those other times, but I can tell you that I have been around this thing for a while. Back in the 80s and 90s, I was the king of relapse.
I didn't actually relapse because in order to relapse, you actually have to have been sober for a while. I don't know how long, but I know that I was pretty much breaking sobriety every week.
I had been in and out of AA for the longest time. Then, in 2002, I had a moment of clarity. I was in my early 40s, and I couldn't understand what had happened to my life. Here I was on my third martini and it wasn't even 10:00 a.m.
Many seeds were planted into my brain all those years that I went to the meetings and they were not in vain. I heard a voice going off in my head that said my name is Dave and I'm an alcoholic. I realized that nothing was going to change in my life until I came to terms with that.
It suddenly occurred to me that I was never going to change my life until I put the cap on the bottle and got back into AA and actually listened and took action this time around.
I stayed sober through the program of AA for almost 9 years. And then I actually had a relapse that cost me about 3 years of oblivion. Now I'm coming up on 9 years all over again. I'm just taking things one day at a time and doing what has been suggested to me, and I keep showing up at meetings.
Both times I got myself a sponsor and they took me through the 12 steps and that's when the real changes started to happen. You don't have to believe the lie like I did the first time around. Picking up a drink is a big fat lie and it never gets any better. Only worse.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life. What you do with it is up to you!
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I am sorry to hear that, Ashley. I have some resources that may be of help to you, if you are interested. If so, I will shoot you a friend request and we can chat a bit more so I am able to send you the most helpful and relevant info possible. I would at some point need an email address.
As for words and support, without knowing specifics, I am not sure I could offer you anything that hasn't already been said other than this, the longer you get under your belt, the more difficult it makes this sort of nasty repetition. An Alnon meeting might be helpful, so that you can experience what those who have to live with us and our mistakes go through. Do you have kids, a significant other?
Oh babe, been there done that, twice actually from the same place 
. It’s gonna be okay, ur gonna get better and eventually find a even better job for u! I believe in u! If u need a friend I’m here, my inbox is always open.
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It can take a long time for some of us. It’s been 12 years of fighting for me, but I think I’ve got it this time. Just keep up the flight and keep coming back.
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