Day 13. I feel good. Not 100% but better than I felt 13 days ago. I know these next couple days are going to be extremely tough to get through. So forgive me if I'm venting on here too much. For myself, The 3rd and 4th week of sobriety are always the hardest. It's a constant war in my mind. I begin to obsess over alcohol. The craving is powerful. that little demon in my mind keeps telling me I can have just one. However, with courage and willpower I will keep telling myself Just for today, I will fight that obsession. Just for today I will remain sober. Any words of encouragement are welcomed. I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday.
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I don't think you are venting at all. Sounds like a pretty honest assessment to me.
What resources do you have available to help when the demon rears its ugly head? Do you have people you can call or meet up with?
We all need help getting and staying sober. No one does this alone.
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I feel your pain, add on painful life situations and it amplifies the obsession tremendously. Just for today let’s talk to whoever we need to to avoid that first drink. You know we’re gods strongest warriors right? And god gave his strongest warriors the hardest battle, battling addiction and mental illness and the stigma that comes with it. I have faith in you, god does too. Have faith in yourself.
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Congratulations on 13 days Jessica! 
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Hi TJ. Thanks. Yes I have a few people I can call on. I have to let my wall down. Im pretty independent and think I can do everything on my own. But you are right, reaching out to some of my sober friends is a great idea. I've also been jumping in AA meetings via zoom. That helps.
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Thank you Brandon
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Thank you HB 
congrats on 3 days! 3 days is better than zero!
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You’re welcome.
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I always found week 3 and 4 super tough when I was in and out of the rooms. What helped me, was to jump all in on AA. Found a sponsor and began working the steps ASAP. The steps is where the healing comes from, and I know it sounds hard to believe, but that obsession, it goes away. You describe the mental obsession well. You can RECOVER from all this, and literally almost NEVER think about drinking. Gotta do the steps
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Yes. I need to take that step and get a sponsor. Last time I was sober 3 years I didn't work the steps or even go to AA. I just buried my head in work and school. Thank you for the advice.
I’m day 13 as well, trying to fight the urge, making a cup of tension tamer tea.
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That sounds delicious. Congrats on day 13 We got this.
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A couple of ideas that help me are “does alcohol give more than it takes?” And to “play the tape forward “. Like to fast forward the tape of your life and look at how you’ll feel after drinking versus how you’ll feel after not drinking
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No matter how long we’ve been sober relapse can be right around the corner. Just keep doing the next right thing and I promise that those cravings will go away!! You’ve got this Jessica!!
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That's great advice. Thank you!!
You got this. You have the right mindset and the skills to overcome. You also have this fantastic sounding bored to always help.
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Way to go girl! You are doing great. Do you have a therapist you can work through all this with? I find my therapist to be really helpful. You could attend an in person meeting to help you and make you feel more connected. Easy does it! Keep going.
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Do you have someone to call when the cravings get tough? That helped me a lot during the beginning!
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Awesome job staying sober 13 days! For me I had to surrender and fully commit to working the steps, it was only then that my obsession of the mind to drink was lifted, therefore never again had to deal with the physical cravings either.
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One day at a time
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