Day 15 after 4 1/2 weeks of daily weed smoking and drinking. Almost got what would have been my first DUI but God spared me. The past few days have been fun and very social but ive been feeling flat. Just flat. I look forward to things mentally but not necessarily emotionally, and i know i have to sit with it. Idk for how long but just let it be.
Change is hard, scary, and uncomfortable and the idea of giving up the false sense of control that carried me all my life is terrifying at times. Just an honest rant to get this off my chest. Thankful to have another chance and know that all that matters is today. Blessings to all wherever you are on your journey🙏🏿