I am on day two of not drinking. Everybody close to me is concerned about me, but I truly don't think I'm as bad as they think I am. I don't miss the alcohol at all. I've had people say that I drink because I am depressed. The truth is, I don't drink because I'm depressed. I drink because I'm bored and I want to pass time by sleeping/passing out. I drink because of a lack of motivation. I had my first child 11 years ago and have been home since. I just am not motivated to do anything and that's kind of hard. I just need some kind of boost to kick me in the bottom. Focusing on this is actually a wonderful thing because it's giving me a purpose. I wish people would listen to me instead of coming to the wrong conclusions. I'm not in denial. I have a drinking problem and I am addressing it but I wish people would understand why I drink.
Just be careful.. I’ve been sober a few times for 5-6 months and didn’t miss alcohol at all and was feeling amazing , then that urge came HARD AND FAST out of nowhere for alcohol and I’ve relapsed .. just take it a day at a time
Thank you!!! One day at a time!
I believe you Becks I think I was bored most of my life and I joined AA staying sober for six years. When I stopped going to meetings I stayed sober for another couple of years. The relapse came to ten years before I returned, four+ years ago. BTW I used to work in Woodbridge. Not saying how long ago though. Lol!
Hello Becks: Maybe you could try making several AA meetings. And if you do, then please get some phone numbers of females at those meetings. They may invite you out to coffee. Talk to them! You're not alone and support is out there, just for the asking.
I believe you but our alcoholism will find any reason to drink. As far as depression, research shows that it's a chicken or the egg situation; does one drink because they are depressed or has the drinking caused the depression because alcohol is indeed a central nervous system depressant. Chronic alcoholism has also been shown to lead to bipolar disorder ( which I fear has what's going on in my case 
). Under normal circumstances, I would highly recommend medical detox but it sounds like you aren't too physically dependent so you should seek group meetings via AA or SMART to solidify your sobriety and combat some of that boredom. Both have physical meetings and zoom meetings online quite frequently. I'm planning on joining a SMART group that actually goes out and does things (hiking, outdoor sports)in addition to the meetings. Just food for thought. Good luck Becks
Wish ya Strength and Serenity
I’ve never heard of SMART before. Will look into it. Well said about the chicken or the egg situation. Definitely was a spiraling effect in my experience, one feeding the other..
Well I just replied on your thread lol....sorry for the redundancy 🤦
All good!
I definitely need to worry about me and not what others think...I need to take care of me.