Day 2 from another blackout drunk. I can go a week without drinking, but as soon as I get a day off, there I go. Amazingly, despite how bad drinking has been for me throughout my life, I'd stop! Everything in me wants it to, but it is never strong enough to stop it. All I can do is keep getting up and trying again. If I didn't have God. His hope is that there's something better. I'm not sure if I'd be alive. The depression is real. But so is God. Here I go with another week of work, and in hopes that my days off coming up will not involve drinking. Thank you for this community. I'm glad I've found it. Reaching out is so difficult for me, but so is that life that I'm sick of.
Kevin, I finally got sick and tired of the nightmare binge drinking. I finally went all in on my program of AA. Went to meetings daily and nightly, got a sponsor and did the 12 steps.
16 years sober and grateful🙏. I’m here if you ever want to talk
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