Day 43 - sleepy. Happy that tomorrow is Friday. I

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Day 43 - sleepy. Happy that tomorrow is Friday. I realized that I’ve “trained” myself to feel/not feel a certain way but that it’s ok to feel however my feelings show up. I should let them come and let them go and not punish myself for them. I also realized that if I really want something, I habitually settle for less. I’ll get the adjacent/lesser thing instead of what I really wanted… but I only do it to myself.

This all sounds like the way my parents treated me growing up. The many forms of punishment I was subjected to, I now have subjected myself to.

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43 days I am so proud of you congratulations

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43 days is a great accomplishment! I’m only 15 days. Try not to punish yourself for how you feel. We feel all different kinds of ways at different times. I get what you’re saying though. You deserve the best and deserve to treat yourself with the best. Do something for yourself that you weren’t trained to do, something more not less. It’ll probably make you feel great and show you that you deserve better for yourself. Parents can do a lot of damage to their children, some intentionally, some not but you can break that chain. Learn from it and then grow above and beyond it. You deserve to be happy and to treat yourself well. Congratulations on 43 days! I wish you nothing but the very best🙏

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