Day 5, woke up sober. Emotionally I feel a bit lost. I have a lot of trauma from all the things that've happened while being intoxicated. I want to create/have new sober memories where I can look back and not feel shame/guilt. I need a new chapter. Right now I'm learning how to be consistent with sobriety without letting my past interfere.
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It does get easier, 1 day at a time, I had to break it down to the minute sometimes, it will be worth it and you will have a lot of new sober memories
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Thank you for the support and for sharing with me, anything helps 
Remember that all the terrible things you did while intoxicated didn't all happen at once. It took time to accumulate those bad memories. So it is also going to take some time to make new accomplishments. In our addiction we want everything right now. What you are feeling is normal and each day things will slowly get better and before you know it you will start to forget the past and focus more on the now. Hang in there and have patience and trust me you will get there with the help of your higher power. I couldn't do it alone. I needed a sponsor meetings and a new network of sober friends. If you really want it then it will happen. Good luck on your journey
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Thank you Ron!
Hang in there it does get easier... I had a really low bottom where I was homeless and stealing from people and I hate myself for it but I went to treatment I made it through the year with meetings and counseling and now I'm back home ready to start over again I wish you the best of luck.. just take it one day at a time you got this
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