Day one, again

Recovery
#1

Ok, I woke up my partner last night, and admitted I was using again. I gave him my stash and told him to get rid of it. if I was left to do it, I wouldn't be able to.
I didn't get in any accidents, or make any huge mistakes this month ish long stint, but I feel so foolish.

I'm at work today, I'm achy, super emotional, and my head is killing me.

But I didn't dare stay home, I have to be doing something.

My plan this evening is to write down things to do to fill my time over the next 2 weeks.

I can do this, I know I can.
I have to be nicer to myself and remember I am worth everything.

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#2

You soooooo got this

#3

Stay busy. Meetings helped me

#4

I’m so proud of you. Really. It’s not easy at all. I had to open up to my partner finally mid psychosis, I couldn’t handle the lies and deceit and the feelings anymore. So so proud of you.

#5

Good for you, you may need a new partner

#6

Why would I need a new partner. He didn't make me do the drugs, and when I told him he was and is being supportive.

#7

Nicole, what you did shows a lot of courage and strength. It is a hard thing to do, admittance, not only to yourself but also to your partner. Be thankful for your support. It's a scary thing to give a crutch up like you did. Now it's done, and you handled it like a pro. Focus on the yourself. Stay in the present, meetings, and in contact with fellow addicts/sponsor no matter how difficult. Be proud of yourself, Im glad to have read this today. Reach out if you need.

#8

I'm happy for you