Day one. I’m new here

I want to stop drinking alcohol but im finding it hard to string more than a couple of days together. I really don’t understand why as I’m a disciplined person in all other areas of my life - but alcohol just wins everytime.
I have been feeling very lonely with my struggle as everyone I know seens to be able to take or leave it.
I hope that by being part of this community I will feel less alone.

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I used to look around and think everyone else could take it or leave it, and I couldn’t.

What I learned over time is it wasn’t about willpower, it was about understanding what I was actually reaching for when I picked up. And how much damage came in that little bottle. The more I started to learn about Me , the less control alcohol had over me. It didn’t happen fast, but awareness changed everything for me.

Give yourself time. You can do this

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Thank you, Crissy - that’s very encouraging.

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Reena, I could have written this myself once.

I was disciplined in so many areas of my life. I could show up for work, for family, for responsibilities… but when it came to substances, I felt like it always won. I used to think that meant something was broken in me.

It didn’t. It meant I was using substances to cope with things I hadn’t healed yet.

For me, sobriety stopped being about willpower and started being about self-love. I had to learn to sit with myself instead of escape myself. And that didn’t happen overnight. It happened one honest day at a time.

Today, my life feels steadier. Not perfect. Not magical. But clear. I trust myself more. I don’t wake up carrying shame. That clarity was built in small, unglamorous, consistent days.

Day one is brave. Posting this is brave. Feeling lonely and still showing up anyway.. That’s strength.

You’re not weak. You’re becoming aware. And awareness is where everything begins.

Stay. Keep building your days. You’re not alone here. :purple_heart:

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