Once in a while I get so busy with taking care of others not myself self care my health what makes me happy. I get in my head and start feeling depressed, hopeless, even like no 1 needs me around (suicidal) ideology. I loss count at around 100 times times in 45 years I have been to the behavior unit (4th floor) in the hospital.
Being of service in the rooms NA AA pouring coffee shaking hands with a new face telling fellow members great to see them help volunteer during events. Have helped me. Who knew 31 years ago a 14 year old boy would become a active member of society and give back more love understanding patents that he never had.