You came in my life as my night and shing armore, you took away the the fears, gave me courage, made me feel untouchable. I thought wow I can do these things or go to these places, but not without you. May life was full, and happiness was at my door. Yet things didn't add up, I was falling behind on my bills, I was missing work, and my children became scared of me. OH NO, I just got a warming at work. If, I didn't change, I would lose my job? But I thought I was doing well? What are you doing to me, why do I now feel sick all the time, oh I can have you again and things will be alright. WHAT!!! I just lost my job, my home, what next my children? Ah I'll just have one more of you and it will make it better, passed out again what where did all these bottles come from? Did I black out again? Please God help me through this Ill do better I promise. Oh I got to get ready for that interview supposed to me the owner at the bar. He's not here yet. I have just one to help the nerves. He here give me the courage like before, sorry mam i dont think your a good fit, my i suggest you get some help for your disease. DISEASE am i sick? Maybe i should go see a Dr, went to the Dr I told him everything, he looked at me and asked me if i had a drinking problem, no, well maybe, he gave some brochures, Dang it i checked all the boxes, my night and shinning amor was killing me, stole every thing and everybody from me. It was all a delusion in my head that alcohol was helping. That was me 24 yrs ago have not touched a drink since.
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