I’ve been fighting and on and off for over twenty years and it seems to me that in my life everything will go great for a little while then everything falls apart at once it had happened so often that I’ve almost conditioned myself to get prepared for a group of problems once I have several things Go my way in a row or I seem to actually find some kind of joy and peace in my life. That’s why I stated in and out on and off bc before In my life all that hitting me after a period of such good would throw me for such a loop that I’d use or drink or both til I was right back at rock bottom and in a jail cell and otw back to prison so I completely understand how you feel
I understand how it feels to not feel good anymore even though things are being done differently but yet unhappiness still is there I wish I could say it gets better or there is a magic spell to make it work better but I have not found it addiction is ruthless cunning bafflingly and no one way works for anyone and the world steadily gets harder and it sucks all of it but just go sober one day at a time hold on one minute to the next pray chant look at your kids scream cry yelll meditate read go to a meeting listen you don’t have to speak it’s still getting In you speak if you feel like it take a walk absorb yourself in a tv show take a long bubble bath a bucket of ice cream get on a stationary bike anything but use whatever makes you feel better for a minute to keep that use from happening it won’t fix tomorrow it won’t bring your dad back and that comes from someone who is still crying today in her moms bday who has been gone 21 yrs but that drink or use won’t fix tomorrow or bring him back either it just will make you feel lousy about yourself on top of everything else and do what you did reach out speak about it that’s the best think that you could have done and who cares how many words it took you to say that’s what we are here for
Thank you I can understand that. Instead of trying to get approval from people I want it from and trying to mold them into what I want or need isn’t the healthiest thing to do. I want to do that for myself and put that effort into me. I’m trying I really am. Thank you
Thank you 
Thank you so much for sharing you really made my day with this. Im going to rly try to be positive today because I know I deserve it but my children who mean the world to me deserve that too. I want to badly be this happy person and smile for my kids and have that motivation but sitting here being sad isn’t going to make that happen. I will keep telling myself I’m here I’m alive and I can do this.
“Practicing the principles in all of our affairs”
Practice makes habit.
You’re welcome Stephanie.
Also, I learned that healthy boundaries can strengthen a relationship. We must communicate our needs to our partner and friends and family and coworkers. I would shut down when others didn’t do what I wanted. Then I would get upset at them.
Because I practice the steps to the best of my ability I no longer fight anyone or anything, including Alcohol.
I recommend going to a meeting once a week, getting a sponsor and working the steps.
Getting a commitment helps with being of service.
So welcome