I have been sober for a year and 8 months, and 17 days.
2 days before my one year anniversary of sobriety my ex decided to leave me, take the dog we adopted together.. never saw him again, we sold the house we had together. I’m active in AA
But I feel lost, I feel depressed, I’m scared I’m never going to feel whole again. I’m glad I haven’t picked up a drink, but my depression, Anxiety is so bad. I’m hurting I miss my old life, minus the alcohol. I’m lonely, I’m hurting, I’m angry… I just keep saying why me. I was really was trying before my ex left so we could have a better future...
I’m still trying but I can’t get out of this slump, I’m in right now. Why would this person leave me when I was trying to get better, why would my ex take my dog (my best friend) all these why’s i have
I’m trying to wait for the miracle to happen, but maybe I don’t deserve one… maybe I’m meant to be miserable and alone. #Sadness-complete sadness, overwhelming sadness 
Can you get a new dog who can be your new best friend? This might help you make new memories. I have depression too and I’ve learned that my depression is tied to my past in many ways. When I make new memories my old memories become less painful. Anyway, thinking of you.
Hang in there buddy I feel your pain. I was seeing a girl for around 6 months I really liked her even though we were doing dope together, anyway she ripped my heart out when I found out she’s bisexual and has a girlfriend. I was devastated and I’m feeling the hurt big time. I just got out of detox Monday and have already got high with her a few times. She’s using me and we got high together this morning and I decided I’m done with her because I can’t handle the pain. She’s my neighbor and I love good reason to believe she’s also with a couple guys in our apartment. I’m cutting all ties with her and tomorrow will be my 1st day of recovery and I’m starting IOP on Wednesday
I think it’s just life love hurts it’s time to focus on our sobriety and let the Lord bring the right woman into our lives and maybe he’ll reconcile you with the one you love, but sobriety is key before anything good comes to us
Wow, that’s awesome and very good advice.
Rob, you gotta run from people who still actively use or hurt you. I cannot heal myself by entertaining other broken people because I am broken. You are worth healing and so am I. Surrender again and let it go.
I have a therapist. Nothing seems to be working, unfortunately, I feel like an empty shell at this point. I want to wake up and feel joy. I wake up everyday with the sense of not this again…
I appreciate you reaching out to me. I need all the help I can get right now… thank you
Thanks I appreciate it.
I’d say you definitely need to cut ties with her. Me and my ex were together for 9 1/2 years I don’t know how to move forward, I thought I found my person.. so I know what it is to be broken and have your heart ripped out.
But seriously do this for you this is life or death… please hit some meetings get some help because it’s the only thing that has gotten me this far despite my depression and anxiety I wouldn’t be sober today without AA
If I can you can!!!
I actually did adopt another dog, but the memories of my Silas can’t be erased I cry everyday I never even got to say goodbye and I know he’s out there, but I have to act like he’s dead it’s just so hard. Depression sucks I’m sorry you have to deal with it too
I think it definitely stems from our past aswell… this has just been hard for me to understand I appreciate you thinking of me I will be thinking of you too…
My sobriety definitely has been coming first. I have not picked up a drink and I’m beyond thankful for that. I just can’t seem to piece anything else together feeling like … I want to have that person in my life, but I miss that companionship…
Thank you for thinking of me too. I once had a boyfriend who was there for me when I had my first child. During my pregnancy he got me a dog. While he was abusing me, that dog (Kota) because my best friend. I never believed I would bond like that with a dog. Growing up, my mother only allowed outside dogs. Anyway, I had my son… He was a week or 2 old and my boyfriend went off the handle again. Held me down, stick a gun in his mouth that was pointed towards both of us. Threw a marble top table at me and my baby. Poured a 50lb bag of dog food on my new Livingroom carpet. I escaped to my parents with my son. When I went back he had started moving stuff out. The dog was tied outback. I went out and laid on the ground next to the dog and cried because I knew he would take him from me. Which he did. I never kept another dog until my current dog Jamison. I’ve had him for 6 years. I got him about a year before I left my last boyfriend who also abused and raped me. I understand the importance of connection with dogs. I probably wouldn’t be here without James. I’m glad you found a new dog friend. They say healing comes in waves. I think memories do too. Hang in there.
Thanks for saying we are not alone, I needed to hear that too
Your absolutely right 100% agree with you and I’m definitely taking your advice and even decided before I read this post this morning that thank you so much. This is confirms what the put on my heart. Thank you.
Thanks for your post about you would love to wake up because it helps me and reminds me of what my higher power who I call my Lord and savior Jesus Christ says, let the joy of the Lord be your strength. I pray nothing but the best for you my friend.
Great post one of the hardest things for me was the loneliness for me had to drop pretty much every one I know I'm in the middle of a divorce but for me it did get better I'm still very happy and when I'm lonely I hit a meeting, and u can always rescue a dog from the shelter they will appreciate it u should b proud of ur sober time it's HUGE!!
Not the puppy 
So sorry. You sound like you're keeping a clean and clear head about it all.
Wow, I’m really sorry you had to go through that with your X, I’m so amazed of all the so called men that abuse women. Growing up with 5 step dads who were all alcoholics, I seen my share of so called men beating up women and kids.
Don't know if you have a sponsor or someone close to talk out your frustration, letting it all out really helps
Hang in there. I needed medication for both of those. Something to consider.
I’m trying my hardest but I lost everything it feels (that dog was my best friend literally I still cry everyday) the memories are so hard to look at - I just can’t shake this