I don't think they can prescribe me enough meds to actually get out of depression. I'm stuck in so many ways and I, well I really don't know how to feel right now. I'm so effing done.
Self pity I'm sure but I feel I've been fighting my whole life to be normal, better, or whatever and am always told am not what they want to see or I'm weird or you name it.
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I’m sorry you’re stuck in a rut. At the beginning of this it seemed like all the emotions would come from all different angles. But they start to slow down. I’m glad you shared - wishing you all the best
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I’m sending positive thoughts and light your way ! I hope you can get some relief on your depression. I know far too well how hard it is and how bad it can hurt 
. I’m here if you need to vent more . Question what is normal anyways? I’m not sure there is such a thing. Take a deep breath! It will be ok . You got this !
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Well, two more universe jerks decide to step in, so it compiles.
I think many of us feel this way…fighting to just be normal……I hear that hits to the core…life would be so much simpler
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Have you ever tried exercise?? Not go through the motions exercising, but actual, hard exercise. I always feel better after I really push myself.
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Not specifically for this purpose no, but I already feel like I'm pushing myself, in a sense I guess
Give it a shot. Try regular exercise. It’s like a pressure relief valve. Plus it’s healthy. Win/win
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My sponsor taught me the difference between Anger and resentment. If I have true Anger it’s lasts just a short time… like when a dog pees on the floor, I get mad and wipe it up and can get over it. Resentment….. STAYS in my head, I chew on it over and over. That’s the stuff I need to work on, write on.. do with another human being so I can let go of it.
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Thank you for sharing this!
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I feel you Brother. Let us not submit! I found trail running to help, try to find outdoor activities that bring you joy
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Go to as many AA meetings as possible.
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