I left a 15 year marriage. I lived with an addict for 12 of those years. I left the home after being separated 9 months now and left everything just took my clothes and my little boys. I relocated 5 hours away to get away from people, places and things. I recently sent my 3 little boys back to their dad who is now sober because he has a home and his own business. I was living in shelters with my little boys which is why I decided for him to help because it was so difficult to work and have my little boys in a shelter due to isolation causing emotional issues for them. They are 5 hours away. I finally rented a room, I’m working full time so I can save up for my own place. I just been feeling down because I’ve never been away from my kids. I left everything behind to gain peace & to protect my sobriety but now I feel like my whole world is fading away without my kids. I been thinking of drinking here there. I work in recovery so it has been keeping me clean up to this point. I need a new sponsor. I haven’t started meetings locally and haven’t worked on my steps. My clean date is 5/1/22 I relapsed on alcohol. My drug of choice is meth last time I used that was 11/6/21
I really need some supportive recovery friends.
I know many people who work in recovery but went back out because they weren’t working they’re own program. It’s good to help people but you have to have you’re own recovery program too! You’re not of any help to your family if you’re still in your addiction. If you don’t have your sobriety…everything else will disappear. Trust me I know. I lost a marriage and almost my kids. I’ve been sober two years now and have a good relationship with my ex and my kids. You have to put your sobriety first!! Go to meetings, get a sponsor and help others. When the next thing you’re about to lose becomes more important than your next drink or drug…you will be there
Hi Kurt. Thanks for sharing this. I started to realize that I need to get back on track with working on my own recovery. It’s so easy to fall off track. I’m currently searching for local meetings that work with my schedule and I will find a sponsor if I go to meetings. It’s a huge priority. Congratulations on 2yrs that’s awesome 
Thank you. 
Trust God
Clean house and help others.
I can’t, He can, I think I’ll let him!
Thank you I will definitely let go and let God☺️
I think once I get back into Meetings I’ll regain a stronger positive mindset.
Never forget where you were and how it felt. Pain can be a strong motivator
Do NOT go backwards. If the goal is to have your boys back, you will NEVER get them back by using/drinking again. If you drink, you will use. Alcohol lowers inhibitions and makes using even easier. Don't do it. You're in a hole but you are not at the bottom. You already know what the bottom looks like, do you really need a closer look at it?
Hi, thank you. I appreciate your words. You stay strong too.
Thank you so much. I needed to hear this. So true. I have came a long way to end up back where I once was. I’m glad I joined on here because I really needed some support. I’m just getting stable in a new town 5 hours away from my NA fellowship was and I’m working on getting to know the NA fellowship here in the area I now live in.
Thank you so much that is so kind of you. I appreciate your support.