Difficult day. Day off
( first nip usually in by 8am...right after my coffee) Not today
Food shopping. Grocery store across from liquor store. ( first stop after by groceries)
Not today. On way home drove by field where I "deposited" by empty nips so no one would know) Not today
Putting away groceries
( down 2-3 beers)
Not today....
BUT THE DESIRE TO HAVE SOME IS SO
STRONG...I started to do the bargaining one does with themselves
( I'll just have one....)
which usually leads me to the next morning waking up and wondering how much I drank the night before and what kind of fires I'm going to have to put out...or how did I get those bruises...or who left the stove on all night? (me)
I didn't give in but I don't feel any better.
When does this start to feel better?
I'm frustrated!
