I just want to say- I relapsed so many times, lost the house, job, everything- my self respect, my family, anything worth having I gave up for drugs and alcohol so many times. Rehabs, sober living, psych wards, and hospitals became my regular daily life. I alienated, lied to, and hurt anyone who ever trusted or cared about me, and I wanted to die. Tried suicide directly and indirectly a few times because I was so frustrated I kept choosing drugs and alcohol over the life I knew I really wanted. I felt insane. But I kept coming back to meetings, I kept trying sponsors, I kept saying, “I effed up again, but one hour, I just need to stay sober for the next hour.”
And after a lot of work, it stuck, few months in, got a job, car, apt, and I now finally have the life I always saw others have that I wanted. My family actually wants me around now. I still have a lot of work to do, but this is not just my story, it’s all of us.
Whatever happens, you relapse, you quit, you move, you find yourself in another situation you swore you never be in again- DON’T GIVE UP. It can be better, we just have to surrender.