Early test in the infancy of my recovery

Struggling Help
#1

Found out today a friend of mine up in washington state, where im from(im in cali now) committed suicide last night and its taken every ounce of strenght i got to stay here in the program im in. I want to leave so bad, but i know i cant help or go back to washington period. If i leave here i know I'll end up using. I could really just use someone to talk to right now

#2

I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Those events are so difficult and can cut very deep for those of left behind. Do what you need to to be respectful but only if it keeps you and your sobriety safe.

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#3

Thank you!

#4

How are you holding up?

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#5

It is very sad …. Don’t punish yourself more by relapsing

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#6

Do you have a sponsor yet Nick? Sponsorship is a great tool to have when we get in these confused states. Sending you love and compassion 🫶

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#7

Im better now then I was I'll say that. I almost left but I opened up in group and that really helped

#8

For sure thank you

#9

I just got a Sponser yesterday and thank you very much

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#10

Wonderful Nick! Nice work

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#11

Thank you Tina much love and much appreciated

#12

I see you're from washington. I was born and raised there for 34 years i left a little over a year ago to south carolina now I'm back on the west coast in Cali, I sure do miss parts of washington tho for sure

#13

What part of Washington are you from?

#14

Tacoma/spanaway but I've lived all over western washington

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#15

Prayers, healing love and light to you. Going out will solve nothing. Staying sober is the solution.
Do you have a sponsor?