I don't know how to deal with the emotions and the sadness and hurt I feel when I'm off of methamphetamine for just one day. So it repeats over and over.
2 Likes
That’s when getting some help of professionals may be helpful in the short term. It’s what saved me last year. Turns out I was in a psychosis from my stimulant use and some help from doctors helped me come out of it. That drug led to me trying to die last April. I sincerely hope that does not happen to you. Ask for help. Where ever you live there should be a crisis line. Call it. Ask for assistance. I know it’s hard. It was the single hardest thing I did last year. You aren’t alone and people care.
3 Likes
If you can find one small thing to feel that you like, perhaps by thinking of a good memory, you may be able to slowly steer your thoughts and emotions in the direction you want to go. Kind of like slowly steering a canoe, that with each row or small correction is pointed closer to where you want to go, and adding momentum slowly. I wish you well in this journey.
Look for local in person meetings Sam they can help you there
1 Like
I'm in agreement that your DRINKING AND USING CAREER HAS BEEN RUINED. and now is TIME TO get down to CAUSES AND CONDITIONS. DRINKING AND USING ARE A SYMPTOM AND NOT THE PROBLEM. Sam you have to let TIME WORK FOR YOU. Trust the process of recovery and you will have it
1 Like
Sam, I relapsed many times for many years. Finally I made MY SOBRIETY my #1 priority over everyone & everything! Finance, romance & family are 2nd to my sobriety & emotional sobriety. When my priorities are straight, I have all of the above & much more! If not, I lose everyone & everything.
Keep it simple, go to lots of meetings everyday, get a sponsor and do the steps. I’ll friend request you now.