Even at a year and a half of sobriety I

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#1

Even at a year and a half of sobriety I have entire days where I question if I can even make it to the next morning without a drink. It’s as if my depression hasn’t gotten any better even with the removal of alcohol. Anybody else struggle with this? Feel free to message me directly or reach out on Instagram @grixvxr. Let’s talk about it :heart:

#2

Hey Chris, out of curiosity do you go to meetings and participate in a program of recovery?

#3

Nah I was in the beginning but it’s not for me

#4

There are many programs Chris. If 1 didn’t work, try the next one.

The symptoms you’re describing are sometimes called white knuckling or dry drunk. It’s when you remove the drug/drink without working on what you were trying to avoid/numb by drinking. It can be a miserable place to find yourself. It’s also a place where people are at high risk of relapse.

#5

If AA isn't for you, check out Refuge Recovery, Dharma recovery or SMART recovery. There are options and honestly,, community is key. Also, what do you do for exercise? Natural endorphins help a lot

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#6

I’m a sponsored skateboarder and I move furniture for a living so all I do is physical activity and exercise. I look great, but I feel horrible

#7

I'm so sorry to hear that. I get it. I've been there. My connection with yoga and meditation saved me. I realize it's not for everyone but there is something out there that you can connect with.

Do you have a good support system?

#8

Unfortunately no I don’t

#9

I am so sorry to hear that as well. Thats the same for me.

Upon exit from 30 day in patient, I plan on 40 more days of PHP and IOP, paired with meetings in AA and Refuge Recovery. Finding support is my main goal.

I know you said AA wasn't your thing, have you heard of Refuge Recovery or SMART recovery? Maybe those are programs that you may able to identify with more and find a support community.

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#10

I’ve never heard of them but I’ll definitely look into it! I’m actually about to attend a meeting tonight just to see if I can get SOMETHING out of it

#11

We all need people.and at meetings take what you can us.there no way l could to this alone.aa 34 years.