Ever since ive been 7 months sober, i feel like my life has become alot harder to handle. I suffer from depression really bad. Its came to the point where my suicidal thoughts run wild. For years, I used to tell myself i would never hurt myself because i would hurt alot of people that care about me. Right in this moment as im typing this, i really dont care who i would hurt anymore. Im checked out. Today was the first time I actually wanted to grab a drink and say F it. I couldnt do it tho. I love saying im sober but at the same time i really dont wanna be here anymore. I feel like im just rambling at this point. Hope your doing good out there in this scary world we live in.
