Bad Mental Health Day, some days I wonder how I’ve made it 2 1/2 yrs Clean.. today I feel like what’s the F*cking point. I get envious, jealous thinking about how other people can use and I can’t.
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I F’n hear you!! My cousin and real close friends of mine went on a trip and of course it was a booze fest but I’m still envious….. for the good times and the social aspect. Unfortunately I can’t be around that because I want to stay sober but yeeaaah I hear ya Brittney
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Bad mental health days happen! Hang in there, it’s going to get better and there are so many people you can talk to! I just redownloaded this but if it’s possible I’ll send you a private message
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I really miss the social aspect of drinking/using. Sobriety can be extremely lonely- I do reminisce the “good” days (even though they never really were good days) I know I’ll get through the day… I just don’t enjoy the looming cloud over my head today.
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Yep, just a bad day, not a bad life. This too shall pass.
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I was never social when using. Ever. I got high by myself. I didn't wanna share and I didn't wanna be around other people because other people were largely my problem. Now I look at everyone in bars spending money they don't have, hooking up with people they don't like, and I think "wow, gross ".
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I always wondered why people get upset when others can use but we can't. I don't want to use or drink. The disease almost tricks me into thinking I need it. I am so grateful that I don't have to drink or use ever again. It only feels good for a brief moment then it's heck afterwards. Why would I want to put myself through that?!
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It’s a pretty rough go at first, but each day you learn a little more about yourself and get a little stronger. I promise the longer you’re sober the easier it gets. With the exception of some tough days that are inevitable on your sober journey. I too lost a lot of friends, but I learned quickly that most of them weren’t really a friend, they were party friends. The real ones will stick close by and support you. I went from having tons of “friends” to only about a handful of real ones. Just stick with it, it’s worth it.
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That’s what we are here for!
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Big book talks about the daily reprieve. I as my HP daily to keep my thoughts divorced from selfishness, dishonesty and self pity. When your lonely get to a meeting. When your angry or jealous find a way to help someone.
It always works.
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I had one yesterday but got through it. Don’t know how but feel much better today. Keep going. It will pass
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Keep Ur head up dude !
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Wow this is so true. I watch my family and friends get together and drink and I see post of drinks (martinis) on Facebook and I hate myself that I can’t be like them. This has truly been the hardest 2 years of my life. I know I am doing the right thing. I met a friend 39 with stage 4 cirrhosis and just seeing how she looks and what she will be going through (waiting for transplant list) and honestly I wouldn’t want to be there. They glamorize drinking everywhere. Some of the largest buildings here are liquor stores. It’s a very emotional ride for sure. Oh my brother died at 33 from Alcoholism. I think that’s what keeps me going. My family is no help, some have not bothered with me like I committed a crime. I just need to reach out everyday to my recovery group. I know my alcoholism is just waiting for me to rejoin. This truly is an awful feeling.
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How are you doing today?
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Stick with it!!! You have Sober support and friends- Lean on them as many days as you need. And remember we are all here for you as well.
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Much better Jeremy! Thanks for asking.
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Hang in there. You've got some real time under your belt. Exhaust yourself with exercise. Hit a punching bag. 
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Focus
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I feel that. I'm bipolar with severe anxiety--that's why I started drinking. It's so hard but you're not alone. I know that doesn't always help, but just know reaching out can help.
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Thanks girl! 