I’m not talking about people here I’m not talking about judging people’s addictions. I’m talking about people there, so strung up that they will walk up to me and threatening to harm me because I was trying to get away from their vicious dog and just be on my business. I’m talking about watching overdoses in this living place every month and a Death every other month at least from overdose. I’m talking about the theft. I’m talking about the violence and depravity.
I’ve done my work to be a good man. I deserve not to be harassed on a regular basis by people that are strung out. I’ll let you live your life, so let me live mine. Heaven forbid you should actually want some sobriety or spiritual guidance where I would open up my heart in my home to help you.
Noooooo…. Have to be a violent junkie instead and start unnecessary drama with people that are not interested in it, and one of those people is me and I’ve been dealing with it for decades, and I am so fed up.
I don’t get to have the type of life where I could choose a nice neighborhood, or surround myself with positive people. I’m to Disabled to make enough money to do anything else then live amongst other impoverished people and I can tell you that 90% of these assholes are strung out on one form of narcotic or more than one. Of course somebody who put down Narcotics and is successfully in recovery from them for 25 years has nothing to offer them, right?
Somebody that has seen over 400 people that he has known and lived with die primarily from substance abuse has nothing to offer other than a target to harass, right ?
Never mind the fact that I have enough compassion and love for human beings, that these assholes are breaking my heart on a regular basis when I’m watching them, take their own lives, voluntarily by staffing, a needle or a pipe into their body.
Nobody cares about that all they care about is that I don’t do dope and therefore I am at target .
I’m not angry I’m disgusted and frustrated and heartbroken and fed up .
I reached my saturation limit with bad behavior years ago, and as patient and compassionate and understanding as I am, I deserve to have peace in my life. After the struggles I’ve gone through.
OK rant over