I just live recklessly and have fun, wether it be healthy or not.
What is truly the point? You only get one experience on this earth, might as well make it one you enjoy
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Too bad you don’t truly believe that 
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You ok?
No, not really.
In what way?
I do, I have since I was like 15 and I’m 28. I am severely depressed and nothing ever works out for me. The only reason I’m still alive is basically human survival instinct. I am too consciously aware to end my life. My mind fights me not to do it.
Maybe try living a different way and you won’t be so unhappy, has that occurred to you?
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What Will said - try something different - change something, anything - being on here is a start - talk to people - ask questions - start hanging out with sober people - they know stuff 
- I’ve been through it - I’ve been depressed my entire life and I’m 64 (well I stopped being depressed when I was 62) - I got sober and got off anti-depressants! Go figure - life is clear, stable, secure, healthy, fun and so much more - just give it a try
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I had the same thoughts about the way I live my life but I'm fed up with feeling like s*** and being trapped because I can't drive because I'm drunk It's Time to change going to my first meeting tomorrow and I'm going to do it
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You came off kinda douche, yah it occurred to me I’ve been severely depressed since 12 before drugs and I’m 28 I only started using hard drugs at 25.. I turned to them because of my quality of life. Can’t really grow back a leg
I’ve given it more than one try, and I do feel good sober etc but anytime I am around substances I just don’t care and use them. I know why but it’s almost involuntary .
I did a lot of change. I moved cities, met new people, connected with an addictions Center with a Counselor etc. idk what I need but none of that did anything for me I just did not care. I have a lot of issues PTSD etc. the scariest place for me is being alone with my mind .
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You got a lot going on. I don’t think anyone is denying or minimizing your situation. Recovery is about facing all of the challenges, and learning ways to cope other than drinking/drugging/etc. if you want to feel better, you are going to have to go thru a complete attitude adjustment. This is difficult because your brain is wired to think the way it’s thinking now. A recovery program is a lot more than just not using. Most programs suggest a spiritual change. This change is a long process that comes with a discipline of daily “work” to slowly change how you think and feel. We call this living in the solution. At some point we need to accept where we are and move on. Otherwise we are living in the problem. It doesn’t mean you won’t have challenges/problems, but you will learn a new way to move forward with them and still be ok.
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Alcohol is horrible plague on the human race, it just makes us stupid and useless .
But good man!! Bite that bullet, especially for your freedom to drive .
No, Never been this deep.
As they say when u think you hit rock bottom you always go further
A life driven by hedonistic and purely selfish desires is unfulfilling. You know this, because if it was fulfilling then you would be content.
What’s the point? The point is to get as far away from selfishness and self centered gluttony as possible. Engage is positive behaviors that take others and their well being into account. Being productive and helpful to others fights of the inevitable selfishness, dishonesty, and self pity that comes from a life run on selfishness alone.
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Maybe your own circle of life is not fully balanced holistically speaking about how things in life are just not worth living sober? Spiritually is the key to success in sober living.
Have you ever checked into DBT. Dialectic Behavior Therapy? Changed my world - it was created for Borderlines (which I am) and I also have C-PTSD issues - it’s intensive but actually changed the way I think - I no longer let the negative thinking win - I flip it - and have a million tools to get me through the tough times - something to consider - it works well with many mental disorders and addicts too! Personally, I think everyone should go through it - 
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Cool. I had never heard of DBT Therapy before. The things I’m doing are working for me, but i meet so many people in recovery and everyone is different. I like to offer others as many suggestions as possible. Thanks for sharing.
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I agree - we are all have one huge thing in common but we’re so very different - what works for one won’t work for another - I love options, lots of options!!!!
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So sad that you feel that way. Question Have you ever seen anyone die from Alcoholism? I have twice. My brother the color of a lemon with no liver left. Very painful. My dear friend found dead his his car on the side of the road, he bled out from every part of his body. Do you seriously want that. I highly doubt it. You’re not getting the right help. You’re probably not doing meetings or even seeking help, which there is so much out there. Do not give up. No amount of alcohol is worth the suffering you will go through. Sorry but I feel very strongly about sobriety. You really need someone to help you. Please get help. Death is brutal.
Hi my friend. How are you? It’s been awhile. 