It's taken some work, but now I can remember the horrible things i did without reacting like i was still there. Memories were very bad triggers for me. Learning to bring up a memory without feeling the pain,anguish, and guilt has made a huge impact on me. The embarrassment of my past is starting to be just that... the past.
One day at a time.
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That is a big thing I struggle with. Especially at night laying in bed my mind will race and I will think about the bad things I've done in the past when I was in active addiction. I'm working on forgiving myself but still lose a lot of sleep over it.
It’s been hard for me to forgive myself for all the stupid things I did when I was drinking. I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t change the past, I can only move forward.
I find it's external forces that make me feel guilt or shame in conjunction with my memories and I ask my higher power to chase them away!
I’m not there yet! I wanna be though ! One day at a time! Good job!