Went to the casino with my girlfriend last night just to walk around, do a little shopping, and get dinner. I decided it was a good idea to “test myself,” and thought I could have one drink. One drink turned into a blackout after dinner. I’m so ashamed of myself.
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I'm sorry that this happened, but this can be a great learning opportunity if you let it. You can't turn a pickle back into a cucumber.
"Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death."
-Page 30, Big Book of AA
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Don't ever give up, get back up on the horse & ride off into the sunset! YOU ARE WORTHY!! Have a blessed day doll♡
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We’re dealing with alcohol, cunning baffling and powerful. It’s a very difficult thing to power through. Sounds like you noticed you needed to set stronger boundaries for yourself.
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Feeling ashamed is okay sometimes because it gives us strength to not want to feel like that again. Pick yourself self up and continue to learn and grow from that experience
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Please don't let shame weigh you down 
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In putting my sobriety as number 1, I don’t go anywhere that alcohol is prevalent - casinos, bars, bar and grills where the bar is the center attraction, parties, etc. - I am not strong enough yet, if ever - airports and planes are hard!
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Gotta move on. Yu human.
We are all human it happens just get back up and start again you will get there
@victoria204352 I'm not going to come off as a 
however I'm going to bring a few things to light.
First and foremost you're an RN you should know better. You're held to a higher standard. What would Florence say about what went down.
Second get over it. It's done and over... Move on and don't do it again.
Third I'm glad you're here. Missed you.
Victoria don’t be ashamed. Many of us had similar experiences. We learn from our mistakes. We support each other.
Are you working a real program?
No shame. Yesterday is history. Jump back on the train. I also tell people to start with exposure therapy. 
You learned something about yourself, and that takes courage to admit. The shame wants you to hide, but look at you… you’re here, being honest, and reaching out. That’s nothing to be ashamed of, we're here to support you. Get back up and keep going.
Hang in there! Get up and try again
I learned a lot over the years and now understand the science why I was never able to have juts one. After one you brain cells rewarded and craves more dopamine and that’s when the lids to yourself start. Ah one more won’t kill me then it’s i will stop at 4 truth is the more u had the more ur brain is rewarded and dopamine levels rise which makes you feel happy. I know have none
You haven't failed, you've had a relapse which is just part of the disease, we've all been there. The bottom line, the most important thing to understand is how to avoid that first drink because now you know what happens if you don't. Good luck
I had to cut myself off from everyone that uses very difficult to turn a 180 but possible for sure this is a life changing program for the better I've went back out for months you can be thankful it was only one night best of luck
Many people suffer multiple lapse or relapse in recovery. The average long term recovery rate is 11% in the USA from hard narcotics, a little higher for alcohol. Most failures fare due to the patient giving up or stopping positive coping mechanisms to early, thinking "I got this" It's ok to start over again.