I feel like I'm doing so well. On my way to 90 days clean, and feeling much better than I have in a long time. But mental health and self harm are as much a part of my story as addiction is, and yesterday when I was spending time with family, mom noticed scars that she's seen bef9re and decided to make the comment that my lifestyle breaks her heart. That shits rough. I'm trying so hard to heal and get better but seems like no one else will ever see that
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You are doing so well. The fact that you're here talking to us, instead of falling back into old habits, speaks to that. Some people aren't going to see the efforts you're making. It's just hard for people who haven't been struggling with the same issues to empathize with those of us who are. That's not a reflection on you, whatsoever.
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Thank you 
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Thanks Andrew 
Accept the things you cannot change.
You are in charge of your life. She’s in charge of hers. Your sobriety is self care. Self care that other people who were hurt by your addiction will benefit from once they begin to regain trust in you.
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That is rough. Having been there myself, I will say this... here is what fair is... if I was using for 2 yrs, I should expect to not be trusted for the first 2 yrs of sobriety... thankfully, God is good, and most families come around faster than that. Much faster. Because they love us, they WILL remain concerned for a while. This comes for a place of love. We can choose to let it get to us, or we can choose to recognize it for what it is and let it be a motivator toward reconciliation. You got this Girl!
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They WILL SEE IT. That is Satan telling you otherwise. The father of lies!
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Yeah, it's tough when family isn't doing their own work or changing at all. We can't do anything about that. Gotta keep on with our program, and leave the rest to God.
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It will take time, but they will see your growth. Family is the hardest because your growth will put pressure on them. Give it time, it will balance out
I like someone's retort "those are only the scars you can see."
I'd never say that, but now I'd think it. Oh mom, if you only knew....
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We see it, thanks to you sharing with us. I'm grateful for your success.