Fear is a liar…

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#1

I’m just looking for encouragement. I have been on my sober journey for 548 days. I’ve been sober 420 of those days. Relapsing a time and then back on the wagon this time a conservative 329 days .

I am in the mist of a Custody Battle. I’ve had zero alcohol in 329 days.

I asked the courts to send me for hair follicle tests to prove my innocence.

My 10 panel hair follicle test came back negative within 3 days.

My ETG has not came back yet. This is day 8. I asked the testing site if this was normal and she said no.

So now I’m silently laying here freaking out. All I can think of is what if someone slipped me something, or me getting my hair lightened hurt the test, or what if someone tampered with my test.

I know this sounds silly but gosh I don’t want anything coming between me and my children. And I’m just scared.

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#2

One day at a time :hugs:

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#3

Yes!

#4

Congratulations! Great job

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#6

Hugs and trust that everything will be ok… I know the not knowing is hard. I just had a drug test take forever to come back and even though I knew I was clean I felt much of the anxiety I’m sure you’re feeling. I kept handing it over to God and it finally came through and all was well. Hang in there…hugs :hugs:

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#7

I think you should go to a different phsyillity and get your own independent test? If you know you are clean don't doubt yourself, especially when your kids are involved! It's so hard as an addict myself when you are doing the right thing and people doubt you. Equally important, do everything the Court wants from you and No one can hold anything over your head. 329 days is a really big accomplishment, keep that power!

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#8

Pray about this. Give it to God! Your doing everything you possibly can. Everything will work out! Your children will be with you again.

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#9

I have done many hair follicle tests. Sometimes it does take a while, not usually, but sometimes. I really wouldn't worry too much about it but I totally understand why you are worried. They typically only go back 90 days.

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#10

Oh wait I just saw that this is from 6 months ago I don't know why it showed up as recent. I'm sure you found out the test by now. Hope you got your kids back and everything is well!

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