Feel like I'm struggling with everything. Day one over and over, can't seem to get it right I guess
Just hang in there remember no drink or anything else will so stuff l would suggest going to a meeting and getting rid of anything in your house alcohol or anything else go to a meeting share what going on and pray
May I ask what your addiction is and what all you have tried?
Generally speaking, relapse in my experience tends to be a matter of returning to those familiar faces and places, not avoiding triggers etc. I always suggest posting a Cost Benefit Analysis someplace visible at least for the first few months just to keep things in perspective.
If you Google "smart recovery cost-benefit analysis pdf" you should be able to download it and print it off, fill it out. Should be pretty straight forward but I sent you a friend request in case you have any questions.